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And more waiting. As Monday approaches with its blood test and results (around lunchtime to really foul-up my day) I am feeling increasingly… jittery. It’s very hard to get my mind off of it especially when I am feeling more than usually tired as well as nauseous from time to time. But it still doesn’t prevent me from stress-eating so I’ll have to go back on a diet at some point. This morning, around 11, was the worst so far. I’m not going to take it as a sign but it would be very irritating to feel unwell for no reason.

Yesterday we went out to IKEA with my husband’s mum and stepdad and bought the rest of the furniture for our bedroom which is now nearly painted - a nice blue (Dulux blueberry white) and real actual white, for the woodwork. We bought a nice black metal mirror there the previous weekend when we took friends of mine, recently moved over from Ireland, who’d never been to IKEA before. We don’t have them as yet in Ireland, a fact my mother and her Swedish next-door neighbour find reprehensible.

Due to the restrictions placed on my by the list of ‘Do’s and Don’ts’ from the clinic, I’m not allowed to help with the painting and it looks like we won’t be able to sleep on a real bed until Sunday night. We’ve been sleeping on the sofa bed in our loft since Monday and it has not been enjoyable.

Everything went as planned in this cycle and last Saturday we went again to Bourn Hall where they carried out the insemination. It wasn’t too bad, apart from the initial sensation that the speculum was ripping me in two. But that didn’t last long and the whole procedure took about 10 minutes.

Now were are in that dreaded period known as the two week wait. On the 2nd of April I have to go back for a blood test that will determine if it has worked, and I’m pregnant, or hasn’t and I’m not and we will have to do it all over again. At the moment I haven’t given much thought to how I expect to react either way. I’m far to involved with the progesterone gel I have to administer every day now. And work. The only thing is about this process is that having never been pregnant before I just don’t know what to expect. I really do have to force myself to not analyse every little twinge I have. It’s not the best situation to be in but it is a marked improvement to previous ones; this time we do have a chance of it working around 10-15% but its better than nothing.

We have just returned home from Bourn Hall. So far things are going very well. One egg has pulled ahead in the size stakes we can carry on with the next stage: insemination. This should be carried out on Saturday. This evening I have to take one last injection - this time medication to cause the egg to mature and be released in time for Saturday. After that I will have to take progesterone gel in the evenings to keep my progesterone levels up, then around 18 days after the procedure we have a blood test to see if I am pregnant or not.

At the moment I am feeling rather, well, bland really. I won’t allow myself to get too excited because until there is some sperm on its way to an egg things won’t be any different to how they have been in the past. After Saturday, anything is possible. We could be amazingly lucky, or we might just need to give it a few more cycles. That I am not so worried about. Before we had no odds to play with. There was just no way we were going to get pregnant with just an egg. This time at least we know we’ve got all the ingredients we need and its just chipping away at the probabilities. We are very lucky that there doesn’t appear to be any other issues that might affect things. And at least now for the time we know what the routine is.

Also, its been rather nice that every day we’ve been at Bourn its been a nice bright sunny day, and today we remembered to bring the camera. Jon took the picture of me as we were leaving, hence the happy, slightly goofy look!

It may seem that I have been rather remiss in keeping the blog up-to-date with the latest happenings on the IUI front but to be honest not a whole lost has happened beyond scans and blood tests.

I was in on Monday, in the middle of the day, which was exciting only really because I went from and back to the office. In reality this wasn’t too much of a chore and the taxi fare was cheaper as well. We were back in yesterday morning, seen in whirl really and found out that there seem to be 1 maybe 2 eggs priming themselves. This is good news as any more than 3 and this cycle would have to be abandoned. It seems they are not allowed to go ahead if there is a possibility of having a litter, similar to number of embryoes they can implant.
So, other than that, not a lot happening, just wait and see and try and do some work in the meantime. I did, however, discover another blog yesterday afternoon written by an Infertility specialist which seems rather interesting: http://infertilityblog.blogspot.com/